Trust me, we all think about it.
I know it is a little late for this, but I got too busy studying for exams. But this is a topic that can be posted anytime.
I woke up on Valentine’s Day not thinking about my valentine. Because I don’t have one yet. I do think about love, but I didn’t think about it as much until I decided to call my mom. I simply wanted to just say Happy Valentine’s Day, but it became a long questioning session of lol you won’t believe it: “where is my boyfriend?” hahah
Good question, mom. Where is it?
I am single. Great now the whole world knows. I have always loved watching romance drama, tv shows, and movie. I also had a long phase of reading romance novels and fan fiction. So, I have always wanted love, and I think there are many people out there thinking the same.
It’s just, it’s not easy. There are a lot of things that people do today to find love, but as a college student I don’t want to.
I do not want to go on any of the online matching apps and then accidentally see that guy in my class. Knowing my crazy and weird luck, I just rather not. And knowing me, if I saw the guy that was just on my phone twenty minutes ago…I would just fall onto the ground and burst out laughing.
So, yea…I just don’t want to cause a scene.
I just want to keep thinking and telling myself that he is out there somewhere, but it’s just not the right timing. Timing is everything. Surprisingly, this is somewhat relevant to my writing class. The word Kairos gives you the meaning.
I am a college student, and I feel like I barely have time for a job. And getting a boyfriend is going to be another “job” to think about. I don’t have that time, but I guess my parents aren’t noticing that yet. I still want to keep my sanity, and right now a boyfriend isn’t the answer.
I know that there are many people that can do that. And I see the cute couples everywhere that wear matching everything and kiss after every bite of food. Trust me it was crazy on Valentine’s Day. And the smell of alcohol and wine everywhere did not make it better. But that is their life, and not mine.
And plus no one is coming at me, so I am good. It’s the timing.
I think I will just stick with my dramas and fantasies with celebrities that won’t be happening in the meantime. It’s okay. We will just keep thinking about love. And when it comes, it will come.
There is honestly nothing wrong about it. I have been talking to friends about love, and I think it’s just because of the season. But we all think about it at some point. We think about how we are going to meet him/her. We think about the personality of him/her. We think about the hobbies and likes of him/her.
Do you see this? There is literally an endless list of questions. And since its endless, I will just let the timing come naturally. But I just hope and hope it won’t be too long after I start having more time and “free” from school. I want to be stable in life before I set foot into something that could mean so much more.
And hopefully my mom will just focus on other things like my brother in the meantime.
Yes, I will keep thinking about him. And yes, he may be a mile from me right now, but I can’t find you just yet.
But to all the others that were chilling on the special day, it’s all good.
We loved ourselves and our close ones.
Good luck to everyone that is on the search for love. Let it not be on a special day, but every day. Let the love spread to all.
Peace and love.
