I mean who isn’t?
There are many public statements and long emails (with many links throughout-at least my school) that contain all of the information that we need to know about this upcoming school year. It is a lot of reading.
Some states around the world have already started school and in-class learning, and I must say the news out there hasn’t really been anything good. As long as people are in spaces together, it can easily get out of hand. At that point, what can you control?
I mean I am a college student, and even I couldn’t believe that I (personally) would admit this. But I enjoyed my life out-of-state. I enjoyed walking from class to class. I enjoyed staring at cute guys while pretending to look at my phone. I enjoyed my adult learning moment for a quick few months.
BUT I won’t be having that. Heck even if I went back, I wouldn’t be enjoying that. I come from a big family, and we have a family restaurant business. I feel like ti would be horrible to just leave, and suddenly with the tuition my parents still pay for me (THANK YOU SO MUCH MOM AND DAD!!!) especially out-of-state portion and a bunch of school fees (when I am not there).
Either way it is a loss for me and many students. Tuition has been canceled and temporarily frozen for some nice schools, while mine is still going. I mean I should be pretty grateful. Some schools are charging even more when no one is really getting the same experience this year. But you know considering everything and my family, I would say this is disappointing.
So why am I so scared even if I am not going back? I mean regardless of whether my final decision is really final. I am scared. I am scared for students returning to campus and what will happen there. And scared about how I am going to go through another part of my college year at home and through online.
AND MOSTLY SCARED ABOUT THE WORLD
All of us know the c-word that occupies our daily thoughts crazier than ever. Because our life is really never going to be the same again. I know there are some positives like being more conscious with our own health and our own “clean” surroundings. But our mental health and our obedience to the environment as a whole, I’d say is critical.
First off, the whole world is already seeing these scenarios in different circumstances. But who can predict this stuff won’t happen exactly on college campus? Today, we have anti-masks protests, we have huge gatherings at bars, beaches, and homes.
What will happen on college campuses?
Will all students wear a mask? What about people living in dorms? When they drop off their laundry, will there be a mask on? Will there be parties and gatherings that ARE NOT through Zoom and FaceTime and Skype…What will in-class learning be like? When class is over….
There are so many unknowns and we can only just predict. I know many are pushing the idea of in-class, but before really any schools are already starting…There hasn’t been any good news. I mean if there was, deep in our minds and our hearts, we wouldn’t have this C-word continuously running through our heads.
Well I mean maybe not entirely, but yes.
While I have already made a final decision to not go back to school. Like many other schools, my school is giving us the option to go back on campus or do online. For now, I guess I am just going to continue enjoying the warmth of my own home. Well the coldness if we are talking straight. Man the AC.
I just hope all ends well, and it won’t be too crazy of a year. I mean it already is. But can we just take a chill pill until the end of the year. So much has happened even when I am lying in bed. The whole world is continuously sending this and that. Updating this and that.
Can we just have one day where my YouTube feed isn’t just Trump and his decisions? Updates about the c-word? Updates about BAD NEWS!
School and education is something so important to many of us. It is a big part of our lives and really shapes us into more educated people, and hopefully smarter. Sorry to my teachers, though. You won’t be seeing that anytime soon.
It is going to be a unique year for sure. I don’t know what I am going to do either. School is starting less than a month, and I am not physically, mentally, consciously aware for any of that. I have so many checkpoints to complete before I can be anywhere close to ready.
I have to fix my sleep schedule. I have to clean my whole house. I have to buy a stash of culturally different snacks. I have to make sure I have a clean and settled “workspace.” I have to make sure I find some old journals. I have to do a lot of things.
I am already heavily feeling all the stress picking up. It is going to be hard going through this online-only experience. I will work hard and persevere, and I hope everyone does too.
It is another moment of learning for all as the world goes through another widely change. Our families and our minds are adjusting and trying to adapt to all the things that are about to happen.
We must stay strong and safe. We must stay positive because that will bring the light into the dark. We will all strive to be better despite the restrictions and limitations.
Regardless of whether you are scared or not like me, remember it is fine. We are humans and we have fears. But because of fear, we will learn to be better people and deal and cope with the changes in our lives. Fear will teach us to take a big deep breath and not be scared to take what’s coming on to us.
Good luck to everyone that is about to start a new chapter in their new life. Everything happens for a reason so maybe take it with a big tub of ice cream.
I will be seeing you soon. Stay healthy and happy!
