Because many of us are making more mistakes than ever.
We love new things, and we love love new surroundings. BUT No matter how much we love our homes, we get sick of it.
Right now, as a college student, I am going crazy.
THE CRAZIEST THING IS THAT: I JUST MOVED.
BUT STILL>>> I am sick of being at home.
Right now, I am in online school. It is hard. It is complicated. It is tedious.
There is so much work, and even more personal work. Planning has been a life-saver, but it’s not enough to get the job done. I am still out here struggling. Here let me start out with this:
Before we had in-class instruction. We had a professor or TA (teacher assistant) teach us in person. It made the process of answering follow up questions easier, and it was done at the moment. Other students would feel more comfortable asking questions. Now, through Zoom it is just awkward silences.
Or should I say many moments of silence…waiting for someone other than the teacher to say something.
Then, there is like an endless amount of homework. You would think maybe because it is my second year or maybe because I am watching too much YouTube and shows.
I am not going to say you are wrong, but hear me out.
First of all, this time the whole online school process is different from last year when we were cut off. The teachers also had no idea what was up. Everyone one was confused, and we even had the choice to have our grades affect our GPAs or nah. This semester…everything started on a new page.
Things just came running towards every student in school. Teachers were more prepared and ready to switch over to an almost completely online format and version of class. Some of my teachers had already made and uploaded pre-recorded videos from the summer.
I guess…People were actually productive during a crazy quarantine period.
Then with the pre-recorded lecture videos, some of my teachers ALSO had live lectures. It was like going to class twice the amount instead of live lectures on campus. That adds to the time that I have to be working on class.
And if any more teachers have the same plan for their own classes, yea I am not sleeping.
Then there is usually homework every class or every week. My accounting homework takes about 2–3 hours. Once a week, not so bad. But, I failed my first exam, and it clearly was telling me I didn’t study anywhere close to enough to a good grade in the class.
I got a 40%. My grade for this semester in that class is going down down down.
So, you might think I am being very productive…but I am not.
I actually have given up watching some of my video lectures because there is too much. School is important, but I am not trying to give up all my time and focus on school.
It sounds very bad, but it is so draining. We do the same things constantly. And depending on your teacher, some of the work can be so tiring and irritating. It is honestly too much.
Being at home and in the same areas is not enough to let my creative side fly out. It is the same everyday. And as a student and an unknown blog writer, I must stay in a creative surrounding.
Some people love living the same daily life same routine and everything. I love it to an extent. But when I wasn’t at school and before all this ZoOming started, I was already at home 24/7. Now, I have no choice but to stay and study.
Without options comes ugh. The only things left are forced options that aren’t even options. They are just requirements. It is hard, really.
Working from home is draining, to say the least.
I am just getting so distracted. I have set many alarms, I have too many to-do lists and too many things to do. My head hurts just thinking about the load of homework or studying I have to do for each class.
So why do I say it is impossible. Well, it may be possible for some. But I highly doubt it. The people are either leaving their house every so often or they are covering up the real feelings within. And, we all know that isn’t healthy.
But we are humans, and sometimes we do not want to admit that we have a problem.
So knowing that this stuff is getting harder as we dive deeper and get further into the rest of the semester, let’s be nice.
Please everyone… Let us all show kindness to all peers even if it is through an online screen. There is so much going on behind the scenes, and if you aren’t experiencing it, then you wouldn’t know.
It is a hard time for many of us. For college students, we do not know how the next semester is going to play out. We are also so worried about academics, and are we really even learning? There is a reason that colleges didn’t completely shift to online school before in 2019 before all hell broke loose.
For employees that still go to work, the scare of going to earn money but a possibility of coming back with anything dangerous is scary. For healthcare workers being in a tight and constricted building with many restrictions and a negative and depressing vibe, we have a lot to consider about our own health and mindsets.
For people idling at home, we want to be productive too!
Ugh. That is the best word for this year.
So even if it may seem impossible, let’s make it possible. Let’s keep striving and staying strong during this time. This online and at-home moment has also brought light and reality into our lives. We have learned about our surroundings and our mental capacities. There is going to be more to come for us to take in and conquer.
That is just as much positivity I can give for this article because this year was too real.
